Miracle Monday

This past week or so Charleston has struggled with ear infections. One of the medications she was prescribed for the infections caused her to have a rash, so we switched to another and finally ended up with a series of three painful shots. I was informed that the shot a had a numbing medication in it to ease the pain. I was a little nervous because my hubby is highly allergic to certain numbing medications. When he was given the medication as a child his throat began to swell and he could not breath. Luckily, he was at the hospital and they were able to reverse the effects of the medication. More recently he had surgery for a broken nose and the nurse was about to give him his i.v. when I asked her what exactly she was doing and she responded that she was giving him the numbing medication before starting the i.v. I was shocked and informed her quickly that he was allergic to that medication.  She apologized and went ahead with the i.v. without numbing meds. Right after she got the i.v. settled my hubby went stiff, his whole upper body turned yellow and his eyes rolled back in his head. He began to have what looked like a seizure and I freaked out! A few nurses rushed into the room, but none of them were doing a thing! They all just stood there! I told them that I needed to go get a doctor or something because we needed some help! In the long run he was fine, just had a reaction from the fear of needles, and possibility of being injected with something he was highly allergic to, but it was one of the scariest moments I can remember in my life.
Back to Charleston..The doctor suggested that she and I hang out in the office for a good 15 minutes after she received the shot just to make sure that she was fine. She received the shot and then sat in my arms and she nursed for a good 15 minutes (yes I am still nursing my 16 mth old ;)). It was a little scary watching her little chest go up and down, making sure her little lips stayed pinkish red, and praying that the Lord was taking care of her. There are so many times as a parent that I try to control my children's lives. I try to shelter them so much. I want to keep any trace of evil out of their earshot or view. I want them in the best schools, a safe neighborhood,  and protected from anything that may hurt them. As I sat in the doctors office I could not help but remember who is actually in control of my children. No matter how hard I try to protect them, no matter how many things I do, the Lord is in control of my babies lives. That is so very hard to surrender to. I know in my head that He has them in His hands, but I so often, still live like their lives are in my hands. Each breath that they have is a miracle, each moment I have with them is an amazing blessing. Today I will surrender my worries, and my striving for control to the truth that Jesus is in control. I am so thankful for the beauty of life. Each phase from conception through pregnancy, birth, and each amazing developmental milestone of their lives has fascinated me. I think of Abraham and Isaaac. Abraham was willing to surrender his child to the Lord even up to sacrifice. I have clung to my children like little jewels that I want to hide away in my own personal treasure chest, but deep in my heart I want them to have a passionate relationship with Jesus. I know that my relationship with Him grows through trials and my goal is to trust the Lord with them, pray for them, guide them, and give them God focused counsel. I want them to have the opportunity to go through struggles with their Mom and Dad close by to help guide them, and I never want to forget the little miracles they are :)

 I love this section of scripture from Genesis 22

 ⁹ Then they came to the place of which God had told him; and Abraham built the altar there and arranged the wood, and bound his son Isaac and laid him on the altar, on top of the wood. ¹⁰ Abraham stretched out his hand and took the knife to slay his son. ¹¹ But the angel of the LORD called to him from heaven and said, “Abraham, Abraham!” And he said, “Here I am.” ¹² He said, “Do not stretch out your hand against the lad, and do nothing to him; for now I know that you ^[b]fear God, since you have not withheld your son, your only son, from Me.” ¹³Then Abraham raised his eyes and looked, and behold, behind him a ram caught in the thicket by his horns; and Abraham went and took the ram and offered him up for a burnt offering in the place of his son. ¹⁴ Abraham called the name of that place ^[c]The LORD Will Provide, as it is said to this day, “In the mount of the LORD it will^[d]be provided.”